I wonder why and how much God can give a person. I'm just totally frusterated. I went for a ride..(Note I did not drive at all) (most f you know I can only drive a very short distance before my legs are gone).
So I go for the beautiful ride and here I am that evening in such pain and in the morning I want to cry. Is this what all the back surgeries did to me last year?
Damn I'm falling into a severe depression, and it is really hard fighting it.
My son (I' happy for him got a fantastic job in southern Georgia almost intpo Florida) MY ONLY SON!! My son I raised for 10 years on my own. I'm freaking out mom here is in tears, happy for him, yet sad to see him go and know he has a lot of tuition fees to pay back but he will be fine on that he will be making good money by far.
But now to take my rides away in the vette? What the heck ..I take my wheelchair everywhere we go and I must use it, but now I'm saying I'll have to take a pillow to put under me and against my back also to try to take the shock off my back. <
My legs did not move at all this am, it took a good 1/2 hour to get my back and legs going so I could grab onto my cane and slide down on my butt to the kitchen.
My brother in my photos is sick now too. I took him to the airport after moms birthday and his foot was swollen he is a insulin diabetic who is a big time work out guy eats right is very careful. He lilves in Tampa sold his home in St Pete to rent this until his new home was finished in Costa Rica, now here he is a t home foot cut open to the bone packed ...pics i n him...and MRSA again on his head. He is so handsome and he has many girl-friends...friends...but he never took one as a wife or girlfriend after his terrrible divorse from the bitch of the south...Never knew what personality would come into the door. Dang I was laughing at this girl with her boobs hanging out she was an older girl and ugly as heck in the face just had big boobs, and as I giiggled I hit my hubby he laughed my brother got an eye full lol, and his wife...oh hell she was jealous and went home. Dumb blonde. Glad she is gone.
So here I am helping my mom with bills, helping my brother the best I can with support helping my son....stretched to the max and depressed. It was one yr ago on the 24TH of this o month dad left me. Mom is ill, Parkinsons, she forgets my younger brothers are a waste of time they don't help they just take take take. My sister is a jealous take take taker...freak she just wants mom to move in her rental so she can control the little money mom has.
Stress...yes I'm at my max.
I want a car for myself. I want to go cry and just sit and cry more. No one quite understands they tell me to look at this bright thing or that but my health is what is really freaking me out and my families. I have raised some money to work with one service dog I will raise some more to help my mom get one and trainit properly. I see I'm going to have tp get a large dog most likely next year I'm not too keen on that.
Hugs to all thanks for letting me dish.
Enjoy the photo of my dad his brother and the 57 t-bird my Uncle once had.
Susie

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